Feeling Blessed

Our Luke is doing great! He is loving school and enjoying time with his teachers and friends. He is now playing T-ball and doing really good. He turned five this month and is definitely acting like a five year old. He is like a sponge and wants to know everything! He is amazing us everyday with the things he comes up with and at times he is super funny with his comments. He is growing up too fast, so we are trying to enjoy every minute with our little guy.

Little Miss Abigail is doing great as well! She was born a "happy baby." She loves to smile and laugh. She is getting so strong and loves to roll across the enitre room. The biggest blessing is she is doing so much better with her formula. Today we were told she weighs 17lbs! I pray daily about how wonderful it has been to feed Abbey. We have an appointment with her cardiologist next Thursday, however, she seems to be doing wonderful. The pediatrician said her lungs sound great which we are hoping means that her lungs do not have fluid around them. She is such a little blessing and her personality is developing daily.

With everything going so well, there are times when my heart feels so happy. However, at the same time it always is thinking of Gracie. As Luke grows up we always imagine what Gracie would of been like at his age. As Abbey is starting to develop her personality she sometimes reminds us of Gracie. Although she is always in our hearts we try not to show the void we feel in our hearts at times. Our time we spend grieving for Gracie is at private moments. Adam and I went to dinner last night and we were sharing how difficult loss is and how your heart is forever changed. We were saying that we feel so blessed that we had the three years with Gracie that we did. Then of course our eyes filled up with tears as we shared stories about our little princess. The "missing part" is what hurts so very much. We will always be comforted in knowing Gracie is safe with Jesus and we continue to pray that God helps us with our grieving for Gracie and that he continues to allow us to rejoice in all our special times with each other, Luke and Abbey.

The night of Luke and Gracie's birthday, we went and got Luke a cupcake...sang him happy birthday and then waited for the rain to stop so we could sing to Gracie and release her balloons.

Make a wish!

I asked Luke what he would like to write to Gracie.

Dear Gracie,

I miss you. I will be up in Heaven when God

wants me to then I can play with you.

I love you.

Luke

We love and miss you Gracie. We cannot wait to

be together again princess. Happy Birthday!

Since it was Luke's 5th birthday we had a birthday party with grandparents, aunties and his special friends. Thank you to everyone who came and made Luke's day so special! Enjoy the video

Since we are still having to be extra cautious with Abbey's health we are having "family days" outside. What better way to spend time together then at our favorite beach, Corona del Mar. Feel so blessed to live so close to such a beautiful beach. I've always loved the ocean...something about it...that's another blog story. :) Here are some pics of our day at the beach.

Adam and Luke on our way back

Thank you for checking in!

All our love, The Chez Family