Anxiety

Philippians 4:6-7 says do not worry about anything, but with prayer and supplication with thanksgiving make your requests known to God and then the peace of God will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.

Quite some time ago I used to be a very anxious person. I could go on and on about all the things I used to get anxious about, however I much rather tell you about how as my faith has continued to grow.... that very part of my life has changed for the better. I no longer seem to be as anxious and the little things...well they are just that, little... and they no longer have an affect on me like they used to. When you give everything to the Lord and put it in his hands it does this amazing thing to your soul, it puts it at rest. Now of course we still have to manage our lives, it’s just helpful when you know that someone much bigger is behind it all and in complete control.

So why is it there is still one thing that always seems to make me anxious? Even though I know we are not to be anxious. The Bible is constantly reminding us that Jesus made himself king over us for many purposes including to take away our anxiety. Jesus does not want us to be anxious. I know this and I am some what of a smart woman, so again I ask myself why is it I still feel anxious when we are about to go to our “next appointment” for the kids.

I guess there are a few reasons why we feel this way. One big one is...that there is sin in our hearts and minds everyday. No matter how great of a Christian you are, it’s true, we are all sinners. That being said....the other reason is, after having three heart babies, there have been so many appointments where we have received bad news. When I look at the past six years of our lives it’s amazing how many times things would be going well and then within two to three months our world would come crashing down again.

I want so badly to have my heart filled with “Do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself.” I mean God appoints each day whether it will be a good one or one filled with trouble and truth is no matter what we do it’s already going to take place.

It’s just knowing that you were here.......

Can make your heart not want to ever go back there again. After being at the beside with your child as they lie there helpless how could you not be anxious about not wanting to be there again. Any of us would rather take the pain away from our children then to have them go through it themselves. No greater pain then the loss of a loved one and to witness your children suffer. I know our hearts should be focused on God's ultimate plan and glory, but again we are human and live in this sinful world. So I will continue to pray for the feelings we are having and pray for Adam and I to be anxious of nothing, to realize that we always give everything to God, big and small and these “appointments” should be no exception.

And now...I am going to spend some time this evening reading quotes and verses on being anxious, then I am going to pray that Abigail has a great appointment tomorrow and then I will give it all to God....lay my head down on the pillow and leave these adorable images of my sweet baby girl in my head......

Another sweet miracle!

Dear Lord:

We pray that you are with us tomorrow during Abigail's appointment

that the findings show there is no longer fluid around her lungs

that her heart is doing well and that the echo gives us good results

Lastly we thank you for your continued Love you always provide

Amen

Will definitely update by tomorrow...OK maybe Saturday knowing me. :)

Thank you for letting me share our hearts and for following us on our journey.