Thursday, August 27, 2009
Just Back From Surgery
Thank you!!!
Adam
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Surgery postponed until tomorrow
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Lifes greatest blessings and trials
During this time Grandma Laura and Grandma Marsha have been with us every minute and have been more than amazing with their strength, love and dedication. They have been spending time with Abigail and of course day in and day out with Luke. Luke is running the show with his Grandmas and needs serious boot camp when we return home...No words will every be big enough to express how much we appreciate our moms. WE LOVE YOU!
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Our new little blessing

Sunday, August 16, 2009
Wanted to send an update on our favorite little man, Luke. On August 5, we went to see Dr. Perry. (the Dr. who put Luke’s stent into his existing valve) The echo showed there has been no changes at this time. Praise God!
I don't like Luke to be surprised by any appointments so, after Luke’s open heart surgery back in September ‘08’ I promised him I would always be honest and let him know what each appointment was for. Of course sometimes this ends up being really difficult when I have to tell him when he is going in for a procedure. Which brings me to last Tuesday....
After meeting with Dr. Cox (Luke’s GI Doctor) we felt we needed to complete one final test (Endoscopy) in hopes to find the cause of his constant discomfort and occasional vomiting.
We are already aware of the fact that Luke has:
-Reflux
-Esophagitis
-Possible Abdominal Migranes
But we wanted to make sure we were able to catch any allergies and most importantly if Luke had a bacterial infection.
We had to wake Luke up early on Tuesday for the procedure, which sadly is a sign to him that he is going to the hospital. It broke my heart because he started crying and saying, “Mommy and Daddy” please don’t take me there, followed by what are they going to be doing? I explained we had to go do a test to check on his stomach. Then when we were there he was crying and begging not to get the red medicine (Versed-helps in making them sleepy before the have to be put to sleep and also helps with anxiety). He of course threw it up :( and we had to take him in without the medication. I was unable to go in the room, since I am pregnant so Daddy went in with him. I was sitting in the room as I heard Luke screaming to his Daddy because they were trying to put the mask on him. Thank goodness the procedure was only 20 minutes and Luke started to wake up within 20 minutes thereafter.
As we were in the recovery room, Luke just did not seem right. He then sat up and started throwing up blood. :( Which was followed by his entire face turning bright red. They explained the blood was from the biopsy and they felt the redness and swelling of the face was some type of allergic reaction to the antibiotic. Although this was a small procedure compared to the others he has had to face, it was still heartbreaking to see Luke go through all of this.
I did my usual one minute thing, “Lord why is it we have to go through all this?”
Then the wonderful thing that we are blessed with is, God’s comfort. It’s just in our tired moments and when we hurt for our children we loose sight sometimes of God’s soverignty. Which in my heart I feel is totally OK and normal. As long as we are brought back to the truth and do not dwell on things that our not in our hands.
*Thank goodness for our faith in the Lord and thank goodness he is there whether it’s big or small he is always there catching us and pulling us back up.
After a few hours we were able to come home and by the next day, Luke was ready to go. We are thankful this will be one of the last “big” test he will need in regards to his GI Issues. Once the results are provided we can move forward and continue a plan of the correct meds and continue to work on feedings.
So glad it is behind us and now our little guy is back to having some fun.
Last Sunday we got a special visit from Grampy and Mimi. We went to Cheesecake Factory to celebrate an early birthday for Grampy. We had a great visit and of course Luke had lot’s of fun playing with them and was excited that they had a sleep over.

On Thursday we had another real special visit. When I became friends of the Nelson family I was so deeply touched when Victoria shared an update with Moriah's sweet friend Vivian. It made me so happy to see the girls together and the bond that Victoria and Hannah had instantly, as most heart moms find. I've since followed Vivian's blog that is dedicated to her by her mom, "Hannah" and have been so touched and inspired. Hannah and I shared some emails and since she lives in the area she offered to come visit Luke and I. AND what a treat it was! I just loved them both. Grandma Laura, Luke and I truly loved our time. Thanks Hannah for the visit, YUMMY food and for Luke's book.

Grandma Laura and Grandma Marsha took Luke to San Francisco on Friday, for the day. They spent time at pier 39 and had lot’s of fun! Luke is the happiest boy in town when he is with his Grandma's. :)
The end of our busy week...yesterday we headed down to the park (at our complex where we are staying) and enjoyed a hosted “kids day at the park” Luke had so much fun! Later that evening with only 3 days left for our baby girl...Adam and I went on what will probably be our last date night for quite a while :) Thanks Grandma Laura and Grandma Marsha for watching Luke!
We have our c-section scheduled for Tuesday, August 18th at 9:00am. Please help us pray for a safe delievery and for God to guide the hands of all the doctors and nurses who will be taking care of our sweet baby girl as soon as she arrives. Thanks for checking in!
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Awaiting our baby girls arrival
We are officially settled in up north. For those of you who were unaware, we will be delivering our baby girl at Lucile Packard Children’s Hospital at Stanford, in Palo Alto, CA. There were a few reasons as to why we chose the hospital. One big one is that we wanted to have Dr. Frank Hanley, a gifted heart surgeon, perform the surgery on our baby girl. Dr. Hanley specializes in the corrective surgery for the heart condition that she has and after meeting him a couple of times, we are extremely confident in his abilities and most importantly LOVE his sincere personality. He listens to all of our concerns and has taken all the time needed to make us feel comfortable and confident in what will need to be done with our precious baby girl.
We arrived here in Palo Alto over a week ago and last week we were at the hospital taking care of all our big appointments:
-We had an ultrasound and baby girl is growing and everything looks great.
-I’ve been contracting quite a bit, but she does not seem to be affected by them at this time.
-Scheduled my C-section for August 18th-Please pray we make it that far, we want her to be as big and strong as she can
-Met with Surgeon Dr. Hanley-As I mentioned before, we will not know until she is born if surgery will need to be done right away. He did mention there would be a very high possibility that we can stabilize her enough and take her home for 2-3 months before she needs her surgery. This will help in getting her a little stronger for what is to come.
-Met with Dr. Susan Hintz-Neonatology- she went over in full detail as to what the plan will be as soon as our baby girl arrives:
*She will be immediately taken into the NICU
*Within a few hours they will then do a Cardio echo
*Day 2 or 3 Dr. Perry will then perform a cardiac Catheterzation on her. Which means they will put her to sleep and then insert a long narrow tube into the blood vessels near the groin area. This procedure allows us to take pictures of the heart and how it functions. Which in return will give us the information we need to see when surgery will be needed.
*if the findings are favorable, they will then start feedings and we should be released within a few days. We will return home for the two months and then be back up for surgery.
After meeting with everyone we feel blessed to have such a great team in place. We have been so very pleased with every single person we have met. From the surgeon, many Doctors, nurses to the staff. Everyone has been so kind and very knowledgeable with our case. It seems as anyone who reads our file, gives their condolences about Gracie, then they ask how luke is and they follow up with assuring us we are in excellent hands and baby girl chez will be very well taken care of. Such a blessing!
We will miss the wonderful team at Children’s Hospital of Los Angeles as they too have become part of our family. We will look forward to going back to LA to continue our follow up care with our children's cardiologist Dr. Skalansky and all the other wonderful staff that we love so much.
As for our little man Luke. He will be getting an echo tomorrow to see how his heart has been reacting to the stent. Also, we have been dealing with many vomiting episodes and have been trying numerous medications. Dr. Cox up hear at LPCH ran some blood work on Luke and the tests came out good. He believes Luke could be suffering Abdominal migraines and has started him on an additional medication. We continue to pray for Luke’s GI issues to get better and for a good echo next Wednesday.
God has been very gracious in helping us stay strong. We have been brought to our knees and completely humbled by him. We are doing our very best to not be anxious about what is to come. We know trusting in God means to trust in him completely and at all times.
God is the one who gives us life and it is his plan that we continue to trust in. Even though we are nervous for our baby girl we are so very excited to meet her and see her beautiful face and precious little body. We have been on many journeys and through them all, even the darkest moments we have witnessed Gods love. Although our time with Gracie was so short she truly was such a blessing and a great gift of love from God. We know our baby girl is just another addition to the love that God has provided us with.
While we have been awaiting her arrival we have really been enjoying our time here up north. It is absolutely beautiful up here. Being 25 min from San Fran., 15 min from Half moon Bay and 40 min. from Napa, how can you go wrong? Not to mention the beautiful tree lined streets, quaint downtown, being at an arms reach from Stanford University and the hospital, and mine and baby girls favorite “the food,” it’s so good! We have yet to have a bad meal.
Here are some photos we have taken in just the short time we have been here..
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Sorrow, The Truth and Blessings..
As we near our sweet baby girls arrival, many emotions continue to fill our hearts. The joy and excitement of meeting her are also followed with the fear of what is to come.
The other evening before I fell asleep I was enjoying the movement of our new little baby girl. My thoughts then moved on to how badly I wish our sweet Gracie was here with us to meet her new little sister. I woke up with a heavy heart the next morning as my thoughts went right to when Gracie was in the hospital and we were having to say good bye to her. We have tried our best to rejoice about our new little one...and trust me we are so excited to meet her, but there is no way to get around the feelings of just having to let go of our other precious daughter only a year and a half ago and now having to face a similar path of having a baby girl with a heart condition.
The day Gracie went home to be with Jesus the doctors and nurses had been trying to save Gracie for over four hours and when we finally got to see her it was as if she was not the same little girl. Words will never be able to express that awful day and what it was like to have to be in that hospital room with our daughter. I don’t believe you could EVER be prepared for loosing a loved one, but we were so shocked. Even though Gracie had a heart condition we were no were near the point of concern for her life that day. We were thankful for the only comforting feeling that floated away with us as we walked out of the hospital without our baby girl....the Lord reminded me that it was just her flesh and her spirit is now with Jesus. It was helpful..but of course it does not change the fact that her flesh is what we held in our arms daily and so desperately ache to hold again. I’ve heard time helps heal the heart. I think for us it is not so much time, it is just the ability to fall completely on God and have him hold us up when we feel so deeply sad inside and when we fear the same thing can happen to our new little blessing. We do trust in God and his sovereignty, however we can’t help to feel nervous knowing how things can change so quickly. It is then when we just go right to God and pray and ask for him to please help us and remind us that regardless of time we will be blessed with our sweet baby girl.
Why would a good and loving God allow us to go through such things as the death of a child, other trials and tribulations?
The truth:Jesus said, “In this world you shall have tribulation” (John 16:33). Trials and distress are not something unusual in life; they are part of what it means to be human in a fallen world. In Christ we have an anchor that holds fast in all the storms of life, but if we never sail into those storms, how would we know that? It is in times of despair and sorrow that we reach out to Him, and, if we are His children, we always find Him there waiting to comfort and uphold us through it all. Even the sufferings we endure and which seem so terrible “are not worthy to be compared with the coming glory to be revealed in us” (Romans 8:18) Could God prevent all suffering? Of course. But He assures us that “all things work together for good to those who love God and are called according to His purpose” (Romans 8:28). So even suffering is part of the “all things” that God is using to accomplish His good purposes. His plan is perfect, His character is flawless, and those who trust Him will not be disappointed.
Blessings:Although I have always been honest about our sadness about Gracie and the trials of caring for our special children I hope I have always shared how blessed we feel. We are always thankful for ALL the blessings we do receive and for all the special times God continues to make our hearts happy.

Another big blessing... our precious sweet Luke. He has done amazing since his return from the hospital in May when he received his stent. He has had enjoyed time with his big family :) many play dates and fun activities. A week at Vacation Bible School was his favorite~followed by hanging out with everyone who he loves so much! I cannot tell you how happy our heart feels when we see him smiling and having fun. I believe trials make you appreciate life so much more and it makes us so happy to see our little guy having fun at whatever he is doing. We love our little guy so much and are so thankful we are blessed with him. Here are some pictures of Luke from the last 6 weeks.........
As we prepare for our baby girls arrival sometime in August (more details by July 28th) we are going to be blessed once again. We are still unsure and will be until she is born as to when she will need surgery. It could be a day, a month or three months? At times when we are feeling overwhelmed and our hearts get anxious about what is to come...we then are blessed with the comforting feeling that we will get through this as we have before and we will just take in every blessed moment with our new little girl.
Thank you for loving us the way you do.



